I’ve been wondering lately about the sovereignty of God as it relates to my life. There have been a few specific events over the last few weeks – and really over the course of my life – that have resulted in this response: “Huh. Well…..” I look at these situations, that are often not what I was expecting, and think to myself, “God has got to be at work in that.” It’s almost as though the things that make absolutely no sense to me cause me to trust God that much more. I mean, what else can I do?
I choose to trust God in these situations because whether or not he “ordained” them to happen, the fact of the matter is, they exist. And if I truly believe that God is in control, than I believe he will teach me what I need to know in these situations. He will bring me through the joys and sorrows, he will guide me to where I need to go and who I need to be.
But, it’s almost like I have it backwards.. Don’t I? I hope that my heart and life are TRULY open to God. Am I really allowing him to guide me, before my circumstances give me no other option? Am I willing to do things his way? I want to be “positioned” so that God’s best is happening in my life, that I’m on the straightest line from A to B, and that I am amenable to his purposes in my life.
That being said, here are all the crazy ideas that are rattling around in my head:
short term missions
law school (someday..)
seriously.. who the crap am I and what am I doing here?